I've been using this icon too often lately.

[marenzi]

I am in such a bad headspace. I struggled to keep it together all day Friday, then came home at six after practice and just got into bed because I couldn't handle thinking anymore. Spent 9-5 yesterday at school finishing the yearbook, but I was so drained that the literary magazine isn't done. Four of my friends, a teacher I admired, and a coach are currently not speaking to me, and I have no idea what happened. My dad's job was just cut back and now we're not sure if I can afford college. I am just feeling like I'm made of fail in everything right now, and it's really fucking difficult to get out of it.

Anyway. I just got my laptop back, so I still haven't read or watched any con reports, but I hope the boys were adorable and being BFFs. I completely understand the squick factor of 4.18; this doesn't mean I didn't love it and love Kripke and love that Show has a sense of humor. missyjack said it best: "Show/fandom is my OTP." And, um, "I feel like Kripke just rimmed me and I loved it." This it the best type of thinky meta, really!

Iowa Court Voids Gay Marriage Ban. This made me smile more than anything this week. Iowa is Middle America, definitely not the most progressive of the states, and this gives me so much hope. I can't wait until we all get there. ♥

Does anyone have a high-resolution version of this photo? You know, where the boys are sitting right next to each other looking all nonchalant but sekritly sending each other schmoopy love texts which they save for ever and ever?

Comments

[larienelengasse.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry that you're having such a rough time, sweets. Hang in there.

[marenzi.livejournal.com]

Thank you. ♥

[hollydoodle19.livejournal.com]

♥
I think I know where you're coming from, this is my last year too and I think this is the hardest time, school wise, everything's building up and it's all nearly over but it's not and I just feel very out of place and sota disconnected from my friends at the moment, like my minds preparing for the eventaul sepration of uni. Just don't give up or let it all get on top of you, there are people there for you and I have always held the belief that everything works out for the best. I'm convinced that everything will work itself out for you :)

[marenzi.livejournal.com]

I know that logically, I've made it through four years, and one more month is nothing - I just really feel that disconnect like you said. Thanks. :)

[impalalove]

Perhaps everybody's just distracted? *snuggles*

[marenzi.livejournal.com]

I really think that's most of it - that we're all pushing for the end and everything's changing. I'm just overly frustrated with myself and wish all of the drama was over. Thank you. :)