So I'm seeing some dented tinhats after all this 'he's moving out! he already moved out!' business. Don't be ridiculous, you guys, you know they're just old-fashioned boys. Jensen's saving himself for the wedding night. Don't judge, it's really hard on them both - Jared Padalecki is the physical embodiment of temptation, after all.

asdjdkflaj but really, how cute is Jensen talking about Danneel?? They are the sweetest ever. I especially love that they bought a dog together.

AND THEN THIS. OH JENSEN.

LOVEEE. SO MUCH. NO WORDS. Hee, the glasses!

I had Important Things to discuss, like my haircut and books, but BOYS. (Haven't yet gotten to the Misha Collins reports, but I suspect they will need a post of their own.)

Oh hey, let's go from seventy & sunny to BOOM! SURPRISE!HAIL. AT THE TOP OF THE SEVENTH INNING WITH TWO OUTS. Thankfully the other team (whose mascot is a snail. I can't tell if this is some karmic joke or if someone really wasn't thinking) didn't want to try to make up the difference, so the game ended and we won.

I am alternating between amused and headdesking over the recent con ~drama. Seriously, people? Is this all one big joke or are we really butthurting over this? IDEK anymore. Whatevs, let's just all admit that they're in a threesome, and everyone's happy! LIKE SO:

SO CLASSY. ILY BOYS.

asdfkljdsl SO HAPPY OMG. Here is a rundown of the past thirty-six hours in list format, because I am anal retentive like that:

PRO: A three-hour softball practice of nothing but batting. YES. I may be a shitty fielder, but when I'm feeling on top of things, give me an Easton and I will jack some bombs.
CON: The inch-long blisters along my thumb and heel of my palm. DNW. (However, I am stupidly pleased with the way my entire right scapula is one huge bruise, plus a few little ones on my shoulders. I love the thunk when you finish your swing and feel the bat hit you just right and you just know it was good.)

PRO: The best pizza I have ever had. I've heard so many people talk about Church Street Pizza, but I hadn't tried it. Clearly, this is why my life was formerly unfulfilled.
CON: It was used as a bribe to get me to show up at Sadie Hawkins. It's okay, we were there for twenty minutes, signed in to get free dress on Monday, and then booked it. Yay for cheating the system!

PRO: Spending six hours in J's hot tub, which is inset into the enormous pool. Honestly, I will never get used to the idea that I have friends who are wealthy, but it was so nice. Even if I did lose at five fingers twenty times.
AND THEN. We were talking about nicknames and he mentioned that since his initials are J.J., his swim team calls him J-squared. I KIND OF DIED. Fandom/RL is the crackiest slash ever.

And so after spending all night in a hot tub, I got up at six to drive up to Princeton because C, my best friend from Idaho, was visiting the campus and we haven't seen each other in two years. LOVE. Oh god, I don't care if everyone thinks Idaho is a) the lamest place ever, b) Iowa, or c) nonexistent, I miss it so badly. We spent the afternoon together before her flight left & it's so hard to leave again.

AND NOW BOYS. Jared saying he would date Dean & working with Colin on Sam's characterization. Misha being generally hilarious and cracky and utterly loveable (plz to be stalking me, btw!). Jensen & Danneel acting adorable together. Needing to shave Not have time to shave because of certain ~*special morning activities. I want to just squish them all! There are pictures here & here, and I leave you with this:

FUCK ME PLZ. UGH HIS THROAT. THE BRACELETS & RING. THAT STUPID VEST. Jensen Ackles, if you ever get tired of the toppy 6'4" manbeast and your Maxim model girlfriend? I AM TOTALLY AVAILABLE.

Yeah, that's all. ♥

I am in such a bad headspace. I struggled to keep it together all day Friday, then came home at six after practice and just got into bed because I couldn't handle thinking anymore. Spent 9-5 yesterday at school finishing the yearbook, but I was so drained that the literary magazine isn't done. Four of my friends, a teacher I admired, and a coach are currently not speaking to me, and I have no idea what happened. My dad's job was just cut back and now we're not sure if I can afford college. I am just feeling like I'm made of fail in everything right now, and it's really fucking difficult to get out of it.

Anyway. I just got my laptop back, so I still haven't read or watched any con reports, but I hope the boys were adorable and being BFFs. I completely understand the squick factor of 4.18; this doesn't mean I didn't love it and love Kripke and love that Show has a sense of humor. missyjack said it best: "Show/fandom is my OTP." And, um, "I feel like Kripke just rimmed me and I loved it." This it the best type of thinky meta, really!

Iowa Court Voids Gay Marriage Ban. This made me smile more than anything this week. Iowa is Middle America, definitely not the most progressive of the states, and this gives me so much hope. I can't wait until we all get there. ♥

Does anyone have a high-resolution version of this photo? You know, where the boys are sitting right next to each other looking all nonchalant but sekritly sending each other schmoopy love texts which they save for ever and ever?

Someone asked them about the wrap party and they said they didn't know, they didn't make it. They flew here yesterday to be with us instead and, to quote Jensen, "Jared and I had our own wrap party last night." Then he smirked and added, "That's why I'm having a hard time moving around this morning."

Jared is definitely more awake than Jensen is. They were late because Jensen hit "off" instead of "snooze".

One of the new writers from this year, the one who did "After School Special", apologized to Jensen. He said the guy told him that sometimes he wakes up in the middle of the night and thinks "It would be SO FUNNY to put Dean in plum-snuggler shorts! and a headband! and knee socks!" and that he forgets that Jensen is an actual person and a grown man who has to DO those things the writers dream up. Jensen said he really should be apologizing for thinking of him in bed.

Someone asked them how they liked each other's movies. Jared was all 'YAY IT WAS AWESOME OMG'. Jensen sort of gave us a Look and said he didn't like Friday the 13th, didn't appreciate the juxtaposition of the story line. Then he said the protagonist was dim. Jared said, "That was a CHARACTER CHOICE. He didn't need to be smart." Jensen said, "The dude's on the roof. LOOK UP."

Someone asked Gabe if he thought the supernatural is real, and he said, "Do I believe in the supernatural in general, or do I believe Jensen really hunts demons? BECAUSE HE DOES."

Jensen was saving the last cupcake. He really wanted that cupcake. He came back to the trailer one day and it was gone, and there were greasy footprints in the trailer. Jared said, "I AM SEEING A LOT OF ACCUSING LOOKS. IT WAS NOT ME." Then he turned his back to Jensen and sort of hunched over guiltily. We all laughed, and Jensen looked at him and said very seriously, "I will KILL you."

-- juice817's tag

DYING HERE. OH BOYS ILU. ♥
AND WHEN DID JENSEN BECOME THE ONE WITH ALL THE SNARKY INNUENDO?? I APPROVE. *fists of glee!*

Where has my life gone the past week?? No free time for eljay, which means I'm a few hundred flist entries behind & haven't commented. Sorry! ♥

HEY HEY SEASON FIVE! CONGRATULATIONS KRIPKE, YOU MAGNIFICENT BASTARD. Which means they're living together for at least another year!

"Hey dude, thinking about you, hope it's going well. Kick ass. Enjoy." [source]

ADFASDFJLKDSLJF LOVE. They are the most adorable best friends EVER. And I don't know any guys who send 'just thinking about you' texts. *tinhats*

Oh! Softball's finally started! And I don't know what it is, but I'm magically so much better than last year. Maybe I just look really good in comparison because the star players are rusty? But I've made every play and just felt awesomely right, like it's more than a fluke. My coaches both mentioned it to me and have placed me in starting infield. Fingers crossed this doesn't go away!

And I got my acceptance letters to Rensselaer & Virginia Tech yesterday/today. They were my safeties, but it's still comforting to know that if Rose doesn't work out, I've been offered scholarships renewable through grad school.

In summary, life is amazingly awesome but crazy busy. I missed the Fired Up fangirl meetup on Sunday, too - next time!

I love every SPN episode ever, but I am still BOUNCING in GLEE. ♥

Important Things Which Make Me Squeeful:
1. Snow!! We got a good three inches on Tuesday, then a rock-solid ice coating on Wednesday, so a couple of days home from school. Prior to the ice storm, it was PERFECT snowball snow, too. ♥
Oh. But not so much love for spending forty minutes hacking my car out this morning.
2. Jared being RIDICULOUSLY STRONG is such a fucking turn-on, I cannot even describe. 335 pounds. Where is my Jared-benching-Jensen fic??
3. THIS PICTURE. Jared's arm. No, Jared's t-shirt. No, Jensen's happy-relaxed FACE. I cannot decide which is the best part, really.
4. Danneel on NCIS! How did I not mention this on Tuesday??
5. All of the batshit-crazy squee on my flist right now, because YAY. &skip=120 in less than 24 hours, though??

OH MY GOD, JUST TELL ME HOW MUCH YOU LOVE OUR SHOW & OUR BOYS.

HOW am I supposed to write essays when my flist is flooded with con reports?? CANNOT FOCUS. AT ALL. (Oh my fucking god they are so gay for each other and HOW is it humanly possible for any man to look as good as they do??)

In conclusion: JENSEN ACKLES, WHAT ARE YOU WEARING, BECAUSE I CANNOT BREATHE. YOU KNOW THAT JARED IS GONNA JUMP YOU THE SECOND YOU TWO LEAVE, RIGHT? AND COME IS REALLY DIFFICULT TO GET OUT OF CASHMERE.

Also, plz to be doing THIS with your tongue more often, KTHX.

It's been a shit-awful excuse for a week so far & we're not halfway through. Then I found this fic and it made me just sort of sit back and smile and feel ridiculously warm and comfortable.

A Room With You In It by dontyouwaitup. Jared/Jensen, R, 27,500 words. This is hands down the very best RPS or J2 I've ever read, and it makes me inarticulate. They're just such BOYS, with their silly banter and easy jokes. The progression of their relationship is perfect, because they're in it from the very beginning, they just don't see it yet. It's funny and adorable and awkward and sometimes you just want to smack both of them. You have to go read it, it's just... mmph. So much love.

OH. MY. FUCKING. GOD. !!!!!!!

DUDE. RPS? IT'S CANON. OMFG.

Being on set for 14 hour days and then going home together, eating together, sleeping together, having coffee in the morning together. And they're still BEST FRIENDS. And they totally curl up together with the dogs after a long day on set and OMG do they even REALIZE what they have done to us??

(Also, everyone calls them 'the boys'. ♥xinfinity!!)

ETA: They tease each other about how long it takes for them to get ready in the morning.
CANNOT BREATHE. SOMEONE WRITE THIS RIGHT NOW, I WILL FUCKING LOVE YOU FOREVER.